Enter the Dragon

Blog #16

Ignorance is bliss, so they say, especially when it comes to relationships. I have always been a firm believer in telling your new partner as little about your past lovers as you can possibly get away with. I realize now, that within the lesbian circle, this is extremely difficult as everyone either knows, dated, or is friends with everyone else. Alice being my first venture in to this world, I was lucky enough to have a little bit of anonymity. In our case, my past loves and lovers all happened to be male and though I thought this was slightly to my advantage, it managed to be the first driving wedge in between my new love and her sanity.

Now, we had been existing in our safe little bubble of "Lesbian" over the past month. If we left the bed at all it was to hit up places like Eleven in Weho, the popular Tuesday ladies night, or M.J.‘s in Silverlake. Even brunch was a gay event. Real Food Daily on a Sunday wasn’t just a good spot to grab some vegan pancakes, it was a who’s who of celebrity lezbos as well as a regular stop for Alice and our friends. On any given weekend you were sure to find us, along with Rona and Laurie( the badass girls from the Eagle) and newly formed couple Darcy and Cara. Glance around the room and you would probably find Guinevere Turner, Jenny Schmizu, and Saundra Bernhard all scattered about feasting on lentil walnut pate and sneering at each other from booth to booth.

This so brilliantly left little room for us to run into my old boyfriends or worse….. really good looking guys I had slept with, which I was quickly finding out to be a sore subject for my lady and sure fire way to begin a knock-down, blow-out fight!

End, honeymoon faze….Enter, the dragon!

So it was only a matter of time until we left out safe little bubble and started merging back into the real world. With Alice being insanely jealous, a run in with a male friend would usually go a little something like this:

Alice: So, who the hell was that??
Me: No one, just an old friend.

Alice: Have you sleep with that guy?
Me: Huh?? Uh…..why?

Alice: Whatya mean, "why"??? Just answer the question!!
Me: Well, uh…..yeah, I guess so but that was a really long time ago, babe.

Cue Alice flying into a fit a green rage.
Cue Me to wish I would have fucking just said “NO”

The first time it happened, I have to admit, I found it mildly amusing and sweet. In some sick, psychotic way it made me feel loved. The second time, less endearing more annoying and by the, seemingly, hundredth time, I was ready to call it quits. I mean, the reality was that I had slept with a lot of guys in this town and I was just not prepared to spend the entirety of this relationship in an argument. The fact that there were so many should have said to her that none of them really meant that much to me in the end. They were someone to spend a few fun filled nights with from time to time. But, Alice, she was my love, my everything and I had committed myself to her fully and without condition. She just couldn’t find her way into seeing it and, although I tried, I couldn’t find a way to make her.

I guess, looking back, this would be about the time she cheated on me with our friend Janie………..

-Lesbian X